June 30 Day before the miracle son becomes 15 - how did it go by so quickly - why does my heart try to keep him so much younger? Reading Ann ( http://www.aholyexperience.com/one-thousand-gifts-book/ ) is good medicine. Just read the "toast" chapter and remembered our own toast moment just 48 hours ago, and I let anger win, but it never really does, because we all lose when I choose anger. It only births pain. But I don't want pain. I want joy. And so I must beg God to see His face in the moment, to help me choose the thanks to redeem the ugly, to count this hard space as a grace gift too. But of course, that means I will have to accept another opportunity to choose joy. I will have to practice, and practice is what makes perfect, but it isn't always lovely. I will have to work to get it right. And at the same time, I am wrestling to see my new image in The Man's eyes. Who am I when "lover" is no longer my main role? What wi...
"These days, the closer she looks at her life, the more beauty she sees. There is something worth noticing everywhere."